作者：Cynthia Zarin
诵读：卢黛
This morning I was walking upstairs
from the kitchen, carrying your
beautiful flowers, the flowers you
brought me last night, calla lilies
and something else, I am not
sure what to call them, white flowers,
of course you had no way of knowing
it has been years since I bought
white flowers—but now you have
and here they are again. I was carrying
your flowers and a coffee cup
and a soft yellow handbag and a book
of poems by a Chinese poet, in
which I had just read the words “come
or go but don’t just stand there
in the doorway,” as usual I was
carrying too many things, you
would have laughed if you saw me.
It seemed especially important
not to spill the coffee as I usually
do, as I turned up the stairs,
inside the whorl of the house as if
I were walking up inside the lilies.
I do not know how to hold all
the beauty and sorrow of my life.
作者
Cynthia Zarin is the author of five books of poetry, most recently The Ada Poems (2010), and Orbit (2017) as well five books for children and a collection of essays An Enlarged Heart: A Personal History (2013). Her honors and awards include a John Simon Guggenheim Memorial Award, a National Endowment for the Arts Award in Literature, the Peter B. Lavan Award, an Ingram Merrill Award for Poetry, The Los Angelels Times Book Award for Poetry (for The Watercourse) a Roger P. Lippincott Award for Consumer Reporting, the New York Women’s Press Award for Writing on the Arts, the Georgia Book Award for Writing for Children, and a Parent’s Choice Award for Children’s Literature. A longtime contributor to The New Yorker, for which she currently writes regularly on about books and the theatre, as well as The New York Times and other publications, she is also a former contributing editor for Gourmet Magazine. Cynthia Zarin is an Artist-in-Residence at the Cathedral of St. John the Divine and Resident Writer for BalletCollective; ballets based on her poems, “The Impulse Wants Company,” and “Dear and Blackbirds” premiered in New York in 2013 and 2014, respectively.